Bitch!!!

5/15

While I agree with her point that I should thank my parents for bringing me up, it is not something that has to be forced upon me. It is a feeling that I naturally feel. It doesn’t give them the right to force their values on me because we are essentially different people, having lived completely different lives.

When I talk to her, I feel extremely uneasy and stressful. I honestly do not need anymore stress in my life. It is a very crucial moment in my life right now and I don’t need random bitches disturbing me even more. She needs to understand that everyone is different and everyone has different values. She can’t just go around forcing her shit on people.

She obviously doesn’t like me, but just because I don’t fit her image of an ideal daughter doesn’t mean I am not worth anything. I am not a typical Japanese girl that she wants me to be, but fuck that shit. I never want to be an idiotic, obedient human. If you don’t like me, fuck you. I don’t give a fuck. Im tired of people stumping on me and treating me like I am worthless shit. I will succeed and prove to everyone who has ever wronged me that I am THAT bitch.

I will try to do all the chores perfectly so that she doesn’t have anything to scold me on. It’s not like I’m trying to seek her approval; it is rather me trying to reduce as much stress as possible in my life.

Try not to interact with her, and get out of the house after graduation. By doing that, I will probably feel more gratitude towards them anyways.

But now, I hate to be home. Stress.

By the way, I need to control my stress more effectively because it’s showing up on my skin. I hate it, but I appreciate it at the same time because it is a sign for me to slow down a bit. There are always two sides to everything. Nothing is truly black and white.