2019.07.30 今日は簿記の試験がある日だけど、何も勉強せず、ずっと家にいる。なぜか疲労が激しく、何も集中できない。一単位落とすことになる。すごい罪悪感がある。自分がコツコツやればよかったのに、やらないでこういう形になってしまった。11月のリアル…

2019/07/23 Hello Riho！！！ So today I had an exam for international Trade on the first period. I literally started preparing for it like a week before and I was too lazy to study for it yesterday. Well, I literally died. So the professor …

this is the end. I will stop stalking him in every social media. You will not go back to him, and he will not come back to you. He rejected you. You gave him a chance. He doesn't care about you. He didn't flinch about an idea of us never s…

The past few weeks have been the most stressful and dreadful EVER. I loathed myself, my self-esteem was low, I didn't believe in myself, I was lethargic, I didn't feel like doing anything, and I had absolutely no motivation to do anything …

I am fucking lost. FUcking confused and I don't know what I'm doing with my goddamn life. I have an interview tomorrow but I havent prepared for it at all. I have shit tons of exams coming up i havent prepared for. fuck. fuck

I realized im a drama queen. woah. thats so true. ill stop making drama out of everything and be calm. try to continue what i've started. avoid drama. keep calm.

The reason why I can't continue it is because I am just too tired everyday. I do too much. And I am lonely. But I like my internship and I want to continue it. I need to earn money to you know stay alive. I want to continue studying. i wan…

LET'S DO THIS. TODAY I AM GOING TO FINISH BOKI, KEIRYOU, AND INTERNATIONAL TRADE. if i have time, im gonna do the taiwan thing. but above three, I will finish it. watch me... The distance between now and your dream is ACTION.

So, I decided not to apply for QUNIE because I do not have time to study for the web-test. If I do horribly on the test, then I might not be able to get in next year. I think I can try next year. I want to focus on studying for now.

Keep smiling!! It will lighten up your mood.

I'm chasing my dream now. It's difficult; I feel like giving up all the time, nobody understands me, and I don't even know if I can achieve it. But I know it's worth it and I will keep chasing it. Maybe I won't be able to achieve it. But I…

I’m barely making it. Everyday is a battle that has no end. I have to keep fighting -no matter what it takes, no matter what people say, I will keep fighting. Even when people shit on me, make me feel worthless, I shan’t give up. I decided…

I’m trying to reflect back on what I did today. I woke up early to go to work -it’s never easy. I’m usually extremely sleepy in the morning and it’s very difficult to fight the sinking feeling. I don’t have energy to utter words. I wish I …

It’s getting more and more difficult to feel good or optimistic about life. I’ve literally tried all I could but it’s not looking good. But I guess I gotta keep going. At least I have a dream. And because of that dream I can work hard, no …

The vitality. The energy and comfort I feel in the campus Asia class is just immense. What is wrong? Why am I feeling like this?

The seminar by the CEO of QUNIE was beyond inspiring and it gave me confidence that what I’m doing now -or struggling to do now is all worth it. I’m not wrong. I am not strange. I am not stupid. I’m doing what needs to be done. I realize I…

Wonderful few hours adventuring and having deep talk with my best friend. I love her. Talkjng to her, I know my decisions are not wrong. I am certain that I should just pursue what I want to pursue, no matter what other people say. I need …

I feel like once my life settles down a bit and I read these blogs again, it’s fonna be really funny how stressed I was lol. But for now I’m very stressed and I deserve to put my feelings into words. I’ve once again realized the amazing ef…