4/30 The last day of the Heisei Era and I'm just here thinking how horrible my life is. I always try to think positively. I do my best. But I just want someone who genuinely cares about me and loves me for who I am, without any condition. …

4/28 I had an interview with the UNISC headquarters. I was so nervous until i got there but when I talked to people there, I was fine. The biggest challenge for me is how to not be overaroused. how to calm down when things are overwhelming…

4/27 I met Chien Hui. Always nice to catch up with her. Because we are busy, we can't meet often, but when we do, we have so much fun together. I will keep cherishing friends. Everyday, I feel the importance of people in our lives. People …

I have dedicated many of the articles I wrote to seek an answer to the question that has bothered me for three months; Why did I block him? Because emotions always get the best of me, I want to understand him and our relationship in totali…

4/26 Because I went to bed really late last night, I couldn't go to the first period but that's probably okay. I think about my future a lot. I have this incredible urge to join the Campus Asia program and spend time in Korea University an…

4/25 If you have time to think, act. This is a mantra that I'd like to keep to myself whenever I become down overthinking about everything. She's doing better than me...She seems to be having more fun than me.. blah blah blah. If i have ti…

4/24 Again, it breaks my absolute heart when I see dad suffer. He’s giving away his life for the sake of us. He’s working hard even though he has a headache to give us the life where we can achieve our goal. It’s such a luxury to be given …

4/23 our parents were tasked with survival, while our generation was tasked with self actualization.” how privileged are we to be able to seek meaning and self fulfillment? Our parents worked their asses off so that we can get good educati…

努力は必ずしも報われる訳ではないが、努力をしないと何も達成できないと思う。 ここ数ヶ月はとても辛い日が続いた。自分が何をやりたいのかわからなかったし、体調が悪かったし、縁にも恵まれなかった。本当に自信がなく、自分が誰なのかわからない日々が続…

4/21 I finished the hokkaido video, received mugcup for shoshi, and studied international trade. and then i went out with Mizuho. t'was a long day. I still get rashes on my body, so I decided to write the days when i have to use steroids d…

04/20 I always wake up with a bad feeling in my stomach. It's not digesting well; my poo is not good. It shows that I'm stressed. Why don't you just chill about job hunting? I know you have a lot of thoughts about a lot of things, but righ…

04/19 Although it's technically already tomorrow, I still would like to reflect on today. I've accumulated the diary on my phone for like four days, but I want to applaud myself for continuing this writing process. It is such an interestin…

4/18 Wow so much happens in one day. Everyday. I guess I’m lucky because I learn how to get used to the chaos. Today started with my insatiable desire to study abroad again and me googling my justifications for not going. I am here to stay…

2019.04.17 Feeling extremely tired but still managing to write this. Today was a hassle; I went to uni, studied, studied some more, recruited people for the circle, and studied. I hate to say this but I love this busy life. I feel like I’m…

2019.04.16 Yesterday I decided to work hard because I’m privileged. But then, in the morning, on the train, I realized I was under much stress. I am a perfectionist and when things don’t go as I planned, I stress. I should always remember …

2019.04.15 Today I had trouble waking up at a set time. I did a little research and it turns out that it’s to do with Rem and Non-rem sleep. I should wake up at non rem sleep when the sleep is less deep. I should make my sleep time like 0.…

2019.04.14 Today was just a lot to process. My goal is to see the world as much as possible when I still have time to do so -to learn whatever the world has to offer. I am a very curious being -I wanna try things that I'm interested in. Th…

2019/04/13 Calm Down! today, I had first and second period classes. On the train, I had to get off to pee and had to stand in the crowded train for an hour. I will try to go to the bathroom once now and then. And, I edited my friends' ES f…

I’ve just read a reflection essay written by one of the Senpais I encountered in Beijing. He was reflecting on his university life here in Waseda. His main points were that going to Waseda was good in that he was able to go abroad easily, …

Society enforces family love as the most important factor in life. They tell us, family, is the root of the society and we should all love them. It is the most basic unit of society, and without it, society will crumble to the ground. I’ve…

Problems: When you have a problem, keep asking why why why. Q: How do I keep promises and go to planned events? If you've decided to cancel events, you're either too tired or you have skin issues. A: Don't make plans before period. Don't p…

Captain Marvel Believing in yourself when everyone tells you not. People are gonna try to destroy you, hurt you, lie to you, make fun of you, and take advantage of you all the time. You’re the only person who can believe in yourself. Being…