starting today.

It’s getting more and more difficult to feel good or optimistic about life. I’ve literally tried all I could but it’s not looking good. But I guess I gotta keep going. At least I have a dream. And because of that dream I can work hard, no matter what people say. Fuck what others say. Believe in yourself and what you’re doing. It’s your life and you are in control. I recommend you not to look around because you’ll be disappointed. Keep distance, and shut everything down. 

And keep calm. Earn money. Do what you want. 

For the internship, I know you’re kinda lost on what to do but just focus on what you can learn. You don’t have to be friends with everybody there. Let them think you’re boring, let them think you’re weird. It’s what you acquire from the experience that matters. Just do what you’ve been told to do with precision and fervor. Just keep going. Rest. 

I’ve started thinking cramming everything on the train is not effective. I’m thinking about utilizing train time as relax time to increase productivity. 

Its been six month since I left him. Half a year. I’ve tried to forget him but it seems as though I cannot completely. And it’s ok. It’s gonna take time. But you’ll find someone amazing. Someone with your humor, someone who’ll treat you just right. Someone who understands you. I have doubts but he was definitely not the one for me. He made you feel like shit. For now I want to focus on myself and achieving my goals instead of trying to find a guy. 

Medidtate!