after math.

I’m trying to reflect back on what I did today. 

I woke up early to go to work -it’s never easy. I’m usually extremely sleepy in the morning and it’s very difficult to fight the sinking feeling. I don’t have energy to utter words. I wish I could but not now. 

For the work, I finished the task given to me by the lady and another one by the one I really like. I am definitely more productive working while listening to music. Even though I fear it would prevent effective communication, I become a bit anxious without it. I shall continue this. I have passion for this work. But I want more human interaction -be it the people in the process of corporate volunteering program, or contacting local SEs and NGOs. Or anything really. Researching is fun; i get to learn a lot about Southeast Asia, but I want to engage with people more. I’m doing everything I can. When I encounter organizations being involved in renewable energy, I go for it. I accumulate information to make a final report on it towards the end. I am yet to find the research question but I’ll get there. 

Everyone has their own unique journey and they just cannot be compared in any way. You only live once and you will regret it if you don’t do what you want to do while you’re alive. 

What do I want to do with life? First, I want to be happy. I want to live vividly with laughter and smiles and jokes. That’s why I want my boyfriend to be someone who has the same humor as me. I still haven’t quite found that person. 

I also want to change the world. I want to save the beautiful planet and nature that gave me life. I will help spread renewable energy, preferably in Asia. 

Wherever and whatever I am doing, I know I’ll be doing the right thing. I’ll be following the right path, no matter what others say. I believe in myself and I will do whatever it takes to achieve what I believe in because I know I can do it. 

For now, I’m excited for CEG, where I get to meet a lot of people, Beijing Student Forum, Ministry of defense internship, and seminar field trip to Peking again. 

I am exactly where I need to be.