Weekly Report

Hey Riho! It's been another week :)

Days pass very quickly and before I know it, it's already summer vacation and I'm in a third year of university. I don't know what I've accomplished so far. In hindsight, I was very busy trying to just stay alive and keep sanity.

Here I am, sitting in my grandpa's old room, on a massage chair, looking out a window. Cicadas chirping, artificial breeze hitting me from air conditioner, typing my reflection. And I am happy. I wonder when is the last time I felt this content and happy...and calm. 

It has been a whirlwind of a term. I struggled to catch up with my brilliant classmates for the seminar, I worked hard to make a great impact for the internship, all while maintaining social life with my dear friends that I cherish the most. And it made me stressed. More stressed than I could ever imagine, as it was showing physically on my body. 

I learn to let go of things. I don't tell myself what to do, I don't expect others to do anything, I don't try to control. Because life is unpredictable and always subject to change. I just do.

On Monday, I got my reports back from the seminar. I regret I couldn't focus on seminar work during the semester thanks to my internship... so I deservingly got a D. I would need to revise and rewrite the whole thing again.

The next day was the exam for bookkeeping. I couldn't do it... I just couldn't. I lay in my bed all day doing absolutely nothing whatsoever.

On Wednesday...I went to my internship and finished the presentation, finally putting an end to the semester. I met my old friend from high school for dinner, and we walked from Takadanobaba to Waseda, and toured around Waseda while complaining about life. I thought my life was shit somehow. But she said her life is shit too. We're similar. Maybe life is like this. Because we have hard times, good times stand out. 

On Thursday, I went full day internship. The next day, I had a one-day internship at Renova, which is a renewable energy company. It was quite a disaster as I shied away and couldn't contribute to the discussion. After that, I went to farewell party for my boss for an internship. She was a fierce and strong soul, and I will miss her so much. After that, I went to Yokohama to watch fireworks, but it was over when I got there. I had a drinking with my seminar friends. There, they told me that one of the senpais, a man, thinks very good of me. I didn't know this. He..he is intelligent. Extremely intelligent, as he got job offers from Mitsubishi Corp. and Boston Consulting Company. But I don't know who he is... how he is. I'll get to know him soon enough. 

And here I am, relaxing in my grandma's house. Life's good.