Today

I felt good today. I felt so good, such euphoria I haven't felt in weeks, months.

I know that I feel comfortable in an international environment. I know that. But I also gotta survive in this society. Balancing everything is a must.

My main conflict is, how much to rest and how much to work.

I know I shouldn't stay in bed for long, it makes me extremely depressed. I should wake, and do something.

As for the seminar, I know that this keiryo and difficult environment are not for me, but I am able to handle it I guess. I will continue at least until November, when the Korean semianr is done. 

I know I have to be in an international environment.

I know I have to belong to a community.

I know I have to look and act like Japanese, while maintaining the international self inside.

I know I will pursue what I like.

Sleeping through the day is not good, no matter how tired you are, I think.

I will wake up 6:30 and sleep at 22:30, and on Saturdays, maybe 7:30. But i will make sure to get 8 hours of sleep everyday. 

Relaxing is not sleeping, it's listening to music, taking a walk, watching a movie, talking to friends. 

On Wednesday and Thursday, I will go to Waseda.

I know there are gonna be times when you just can't. You must NOT sleep, you either talk to friends, watch something, 

you will see all the other people, girls, doing their things, and you get jealous, thinking why am I not like that

But you are you, and there are things that fit you. Don't be jealous, value the people and environment around you.