5/2

Today is better than yesterday. And that's all that matters. Me yesterday is the only person i am going to compare myself to. not other people. 

I was able to wake up in the morning, and do all the tasks. And I can't help but feel bad for my mother and the way I've treated her. I need to make this right. in ways that are available to me im gonna make jt up to her. 

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Lunana brought to me what I have lost, far away, tucked into the deepest part of my heart. 

The purity and simplicity of the life in Bhutan reminded me the importance of the simple things: to be thankful for the basic things around me. 

And it also taught me what my heart needs to stay alive. I need meaning, I need beauty, I need human connection to make it in this world. I need this. 

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やっとここまできた。仕事も人間関係も充実。

同期と遊んで、やっと自分の居場所を見つけた感があった。やっと属している。これでもう病まんだろう。比べるのは昨日の自分やし。もう自分と向き合うのはやめよう。