4/25

it has been such a hectic week, I forgot to write my journals for two days. 
・My skin is really bad and I can't even look at myself in the mirror. I know this is the result of my stress. I know I need to relax and be less stressed. 
But I know it's getting better because my bowel movement has been better, and I am starting to be accustomed to the environment more. 
・Honestly, I always compare myself to other people and I get offended and I feel like I'm so ugly compared to other people.  But the only person I should compare myself to, is the person I was yesterday. As cheesy as it sounds, it is the truth. I am not ugly, plus, my strength is in my intelligence and character and humor. 
・As for my mother, I don't like her shouting and not listening to me, but there's literally nothing I can do about it so I'm just gonna keep being myself. 
・I can't reiterate how much I love my boss and my coacher. They're so nice, good, intelligent people and I'm so glad I am a part of their team. And I really enjoy what I am doing as a job; being in corporate planning as a new graduate is amazing, and I have the chance to see the company from a birds-eye view, and I get to be international. 

かずのりへ

先日、初任給を貰って、感謝の気持ちを込めて（＋眼鏡ケースもね）手紙を書こうと思います。

少し遅くなっちゃったけど、一年間勤務お疲れ様！自分も一ヶ月ほど働いてみて、朝起きて働いて家帰るというプロセスの大変さを身に染みて感じています。私は自分の余裕のなさを改めて実感していたんだけど、逆に、残業もあったり大変な中で、私のどうでもいい話を聞いてくれたり、ちゃんと時間を作ってくれたことは本当に普通じゃないし大変なことなんだなと感じています。私が同じ立場だったらできなかったし、本当に器が広いんだな、優しいんだな、と思って、しみじみと自分は幸せだなと感じています。

社会人になって生きていく中で、本当に自分の価値観に合わなかったりおかしいと思ったり嫌なことがたくさんある